Since when did having to decide which ward to go to become so stinkin hard?
Why do I feel like I don't quite belong in all 3 of my options?
Shouldn't I feel welcomed wherever I go?
Since when did being 19 almost 20 become another "awkward" stage of life?
I don't quite belong here....yet I don't quite belong there either...
I'm not quite sure where I belong anymore.
Part of me wants to move back to school now, but the other part...I don't want to leave my little guy.
I've been thinking all week what I should and shouldn't tell Elder H in this weeks email.
Do I tell him how I'm supposed to go get a CT scan on my kidney's but feel like I shouldn't do it?
But my mother is trying to force me to do it?
Do I tell him I got punched several times this week at work? (actually....i think i will....because it is a kind of funny story...)
Do I tell him I was bummed when I found out his Mom was only 100 miles away from me, but I didn't get invited to go see her, and his sister's family?
Do I tell him about the service project I'm planning for the special needs kids he's met on his mission?
Do I tell him how my younger brother is struggling, and won't let the gospel in?
Do I tell him about the Elder I talked to that used to live in the same apartment as him, and had nothing but good things to say about him?
Do I tell him how I'm glad he doesn't have pictures of me out for everyone to see? Because I know that helps him keep focus.
Does he know that I still think about him everyday, and miss him, and still pick up my phone to call him?
Does he know that he's still the love of my life?
Does he know that I hope he won't get sick of my endless questions?
Does he know how proud I am of him?
On a lighter note....
Check out that cute behind on the left!
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