A little more nearly broken.

"If for a while the harder you try, the harder it gets, take heart. So it has been with the best people who ever lived."
- Jeffrey R. Holland


I feel like I needed to post that quote again....more for me than anyone. Life just got harder. Again. I was getting up, and got smacked down faster than you can say "letmehelpyouup."

Elder H's mission president decided to change his email policy so now I can email him, but he can't email back. Andrew
can only email his family, and the mission president. Andrew told me he's already been working on a letter and will send it out tomorrow and then he promised to write every single week. He told me the good news is I get to stalk the mailman again. And so now, I get to freak out when's late, jump for joy when he's early, curse his name when my letter doesn't come, and want to give him bear hugs when he brings my beloved letters. As much as I've missed getting a handwritten letter, I'm going to miss looking forward to each Monday between 2-4 pm....

Until I get that first letter, this will be the first time in 53 weeks that I will not hear from him. This is going to be a huge adjustment, and it's going to be hard. If Mexico even thinks about losing my letters, they will have some serious wrath and anger thrust upon them. And as the scriptures say, "it is better to dwell in the wilderness than with an angry and contentious woman."

The ironic part is, two weeks ago one of my coworkers said he had watched the other side of heaven and thought of me. I told him how grateful I was that I could hear from Andrew each week instead of wait months at a time, and that I didn't know if I could do it waiting for months or weeks on end to hear from him. He told me that I could do it, because I have no choice. Looking back that was a freaky foreboding of what was to come. And he's right, I don't have a choice. You don't pray, get an answer, and then go against that answer. This may very nearly kill me, but I can do it.

Oh life, can you let me take a deep breath before you throw the next trial at me? Please?







I made andrew take a picture of himself while he was emailing everyone.
I hope he stays looking this happy each Monday and that I'll be able to keep my emails positive for him.