GRRRR! GAAAAAAHHH! HMPH!

I have now learned why in the US of A school only goes for 9 months of the year.
It's for sanity of those working in the school.

It doesn't matter if the child has been a perfect angel the entire school year...
Whether they are typical or have special needs...
Their brains have turned off.
They are out of control.
The energy levels of students are at an all time high.
The energy levels of the Teachers are at an all time low. 
Not even sending them outside to play is burning off the energy!
Not even caffeine is giving me the extra energy boost! (that my friends, was a terrifying discovery) 
They realize that summer is just a few weeks away...
The state core testing is finishing up.
They're driving the teachers crazy.
Behavior problems are becoming out of control.
Watson and Skinner would be re-doing their studies if they saw what was going on in our classroom.
It's mind boggling I tell ya!

I still don't want to say I'm ready for Summer. I love the kids, I love my job. But by golly, getting them to work and focus is harder than getting the energizer bunny to stop beating his drum for 5 seconds!
They all just keep going and going and going and going and going.......and going and going and going.......
Another reason I don't want to be ready for summer is I might not have a job in the fall.
The school district bases how many aides a classroom has on how many students there are.
We currently have 14 students. 
We're losing 4 to junior high, 1 is homeless so we don't know if they'll be back next year.
That brings us down to 9 students.
The district has decided that each Life Skills class will only have 10 students.
We have an aide for every 2-3 students.
Meaning that one aide won't be back.
I'm the youngest, the one without a family, the one leaving mid-school year to go back to college.
Guess who's most likely to get chopped? Yep, Me.

What. the. heck. am I going to do without my little guy? Without the other kids?
I've centered my world around these kids, especially my little guy, ever since September! They filled the gaping hole that Elder H left last August! Now that part of me is going to be ripped out? AGAIN? Just because I'm the youngest? Without taking  into account I have the most patience for the kids out of all the aides? That I have never lost my temper with them?
The only thing that is really fair to count against me is me moving back to school in January...

Working in Special Ed isn't "just a job" to me...it's my LIFE. It filled a hole that needed to be filled before it consumed me... I don't what I'm going to do. This job has also been helping me save money for school, without it, I'm in trouble!

I need a vacation. I need to go to Disneyland. After all, it's hard to be sad in Disneyland!